Over the years, my practice has looped back to working intuitively over and over and this is where I feel happiest. However, working in an intuitive, free, sub-conscious way is not without it’s issues.
Working in this way means giving up any expectation of a result, no planning or hoping this will be the next big thing for an up coming exhibition.
Working intuitively means trusting my inner process, knowing that it will work out in the end as there is always a phase where it looks terrible and I despair!
But mostly, the problem I have is that I don’t know how I did it. It is not reproducible per-se. For instance, I absolutely love my last piece of work (‘No more words’ above), but I have no idea how I did it. When I got out a new canvas this week I had many moments of indecision because I don’t know what I did, it just flowed, I couldn’t list out the steps (except in the broadest terms).
And the answer of course is to let go of expectations, breathe and trust. Trust in my inner self who knows what she wants to paint that day.